A Random Cup of Coffee

I read a post from my friend Stephanie today about  10 Random Things about her. I loved reading it because I  love learning more about my online friends. One thing about her has me flummoxed. She’s never red or watched Harry Potter?  Oh, MAN, Steph, you don’t know what you’re missing. So I got to thinking  about things going on in my life and how SCATTERED I am right now, and  I decided to post, too, but  more like  hey, come have a  cup of coffee and let me tell you about my life.  (Because my other friend, Carla wrote a post about a cup of coffee once and I loved it. So I copy it.) So, here goes:

  • My dog Gabie needs a bark collar. He has the most piercing loud bark and  he just BARKS for no reason. He sings, too. LOUDLY. I normally love it but lately, MAN.  It hurts my ears.
  • My whole family has a stinkin’ virus that has had the kids home sick (for days!) and I feel like a bad mom because I want a day off to  just sit and watch Walking Dead by myself. And to sulk and eat chocolate.
  • Izombie love Walking Dead.  I never thought I would watch it. I thought it was stupid, but I am so drawn in. It’s not about the Zombies, it about the living.   But I’m now afraid to walk in my woods at night, and never without a sharp stick. I’m convinced that there are Zombies in the Litchfield Hills of Connecticut. True Story. Also, I want to be Michonne because she is badass and fierce.
  • We cancelled cable over a year ago but I’m considering getting it again so I can watch Walking Dead. Or I’ll be at a friends house every Sunday night.  Who wants me?
  • I am ignoring, or trying to ignore that I am not sticking my friend Terri’s Radiant program I started. I am not eating badly, but I’m not eating WELL, either.   I’m supposed to NOT be eating sugar or gluten and I’m eating both.   I feel like I’m failing her, and me by not staying on track. It’s a fantastic program, but I’m having trouble getting into it right now. I’m not even sure I’m meant to eat this way.  And I feel even more guilty because she is being so supportive.  And by feeling a failure I’m not keeping to my 1st New Years Resolution.  This sucks.
  • I keep thinking I need new sneakers and am low on cash.  I need to become a New Balance ambassador to be the face of overweight 40 year old women anywhere. They are honestly the ONLY sneakers I have put on out of the box that have fit, been comfortable and  never make my feet hurt.   Anyone have a New Balance contact I can pitch to?
  • I miss my church.  I miss GOING to church and being there . My church family has been circling the wagons around us  and showering us with prayer and love -but things have stopped us from being able to attend the last few weeks and I simply miss it. I miss them.
  • I’m getting sick of snow and sub zero temperatures and of BIG Oil Bills. Oil Bills Suck.  That is all there is to it. But, heat and hot water rules. So, there is that.
  • I love my gym, and  I need to get back to it. Because I have decided that they are going to become my new tribe. They are the most supportive people I know and keep me motivated when I get my butt there.  Plus, they have a sauna.
  • 20140114-091858I signed up for the Relay for Life.  Not just because I am a cancer survivor and  I believe in the cause, and get to be  on my gym’s team, Team Vitality, but because my friend Kristina (who has her own team, #Purple Zebra for her AWESOME husband)  posted this pic and I thought, HEY!  I’m a walker and it’s about WALKERS!  WIN WIN!  (please go donate to my page please and thank you).
  • My father in law died last week.  I think know that’s why we are all sick and out of sorts. I know it’s why I am scattered and lost.  I’m missing him because he was my DAD, not just my father in law, and he added so much to my life. I’m grieving and trying to stay strong for everyone else.   I’m heartbroken for him, for us, and most of all for my son who lost his best friend. I will never forget the look on his face when I told my little boy his grandpa died, and how he seemed to have grown up all of a sudden. This doesn’t deserve to be last, but  it’s all I can bring to write about it for now. Except, Love Never Ends.

I need to get back on schedule, back on track and I’m hoping by just throwing all this out  it’ll help.   I know how it goes, one step at a time, so I’m going to take this week one day at a time to work towards getting back to where I need to be.  Most of all, it’s letting my friends know I’m floundering but I’ll be back. Thanks for having a  cup of coffee with me. cupofcoffee

Comments

  1. It sounds like you’ve had a lot on your plate lately. I’m so sorry to read about your father-in-law. It sounds like you need to give yourself grace for not getting things done or not sticking to routines. ((hugs))

    • Thank you, Tonya. I’m going to forgive myself for not being perfect right now, and just accepting I’m being the best I can be RIGHT NOW.

  2. ((BIG HUGE HUGS))

    Thank you for your great advice. I’m sorry you’re going through a tough time. I agree you need to give yourself love and grace before you can expect to get back to doing things that require discipline. Be okay with where you are now in order to give yourself the permission to move forward in strength. I know it sounds hokey as all get out but it’s what I’m trying to do and it beats the alternative. :)

  3. I’m so sorry to hear about your father-in-law. It sounds like you are having a very unsettled time, right now. Don’t be too hard on yourself… take time to get back on track when you are ready.

  4. I’m sending you big hugs for your loss. Give yourself a break that you’re out of sorts, it’s ok in times of grief. I love TWD too and you’re so right about Michonne, she IS a badass and so are New Balance shoes. :)

    • Thanks. I’m trying to give myself a break. In fact, I’m thinking I’m going to watch some Walking Dead right now! ;)

  5. I am actually a firm believer in shock collars for dogs. Not to use continually, but to train them not to bark. I used them on all of my dogs when they were puppies! It honestly only took a day or two for them to learn and we don’t even have them anymore. :)

    • The one I want doens’t shock, but makes a loud noise and startles the dog. He’s little (a pekingese) so I don’t need to shock him, but startle him.

  6. I love the Walking Dead too.

  7. I’m a walking dead lover too. It was completely the opposite of anything I usually watch so it surprised me how much I liked it.

    • I *just* finished watching the last episode and I’m FREAKING OUT about Judith. Oh, man.

    • Cat- I’m thinking about giving American Horror Story a try, and if you have time, on Netflix or Hulu check out the series Survivors on BBC. It’s awesome

  8. I may be the only one that has never seen the Walking Dead??

  9. I have never seen walking dead, either, but glad you’re giving yourself a break :). hang in there and when you’re ready to get back on the wagon, good luck with gluten and sugar free! do one thing at a time! when you eat better, you feel better, too so maybe that will cheer you up :) (even though, I know it’s very hard! I have Celiac and GF is no easy task…but it gets MUCH easier as you go!)

  10. I still can’t figure out if it’s better to deal with one person at a time getting sick forever or deal with everyone sick at the same time. FYI love Walking Dead but I can wait till it is on netflix LOL

  11. Sounds like you are really dealing with a lot right now {hugs} to you!

  12. Might I suggest trying a citronella bark collar? We use it on our dog and when he barks it sprays a mist of citronella on his face. It works great and doesn’t shock them at all. They don’t like the combination of the smell of it, the sound of it spraying and hitting their face. Works wonders for our dog :)

  13. I’m sorry you’ve had so much on your plate lately. We love Walking Dead too, I’m not sure I could wait more than a day to see the new episodes!

    • I signed up for a TV pass on Amazon Prime that will automatically add it to my videos the day after it airs. I can hold off till then, I think.

  14. I’ve never seen Walking Dead either but I usually catch tv show seasons on netflix. I didn’t know they made barking collars for dogs. There are a few in this neighborhood who need them!

    • Yes! There are some that will “shock” them, some that will spray citronella at them, and some that will make a noise when they bark. I’m going for the noise one.

  15. I am a big fan of the walking dead, watch it all the time… But I feel for you… it will get better.

  16. Great idea. I’ve always wanted to do Relay for Life. Maybe I’ll finally do it this year. Nice getting to know you a bit better.

  17. Sorry to hear about everything just being crappy! Hugs!!

  18. Aw Wendy my heart goes out to you on your loss.

    Girl you better link to New Balance!! Tweet this post to them too!! ;) Get noticed!

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